not my senior semester.

if everything went according to plan i would be graduating in 4 months.

most of my closest friends are graduating in 4 months.

my roommates are graduating in 4 months.

a lot of my friends from high school are graduating in 4 months.

i am not graduating in 4 months.

i changed majors a few times.

i took a lot of expensive naps my freshman year (ie did not pass a few classes).

i decided to double major (art and graphic design are two separate programs, fyi).

this is just a weird place to be. today was the first day of classes and everyone is talking about their FINAL SEMESTER. but it's not mine.

i mean on the plus side i get to avoid the "real world" a little longer.

i love being at cbu. i love the community. i love that i can always find a group of people to hang out with. but next year, while i will still be here, most of the people who make this place so incredible will not.

i'll miss you guys.

just kidding.

i changed a few of the classes i was taking.

this is my updated schedule... not that anyone cares. well except for those two anonymous people who left comments asking me to look at their hot new pics on my last blog... (i need to change my commenting settings)

m/w/f 10-11 advanced art

m/w/f 11-12 the history of modern america

mon 2-5 advanced typography

wed 2-5 drawing:perspective

tues/thurs 2- 3:20 color, theory and application

online- web design, html and css

i have to take alternative chapel. which means i have to listen to the chapel podcasts and take an online quiz because my classes conflict with the chapel times.

i decided i should at least take one general ed class, that way next semester i will have a more balanced schedule of design/art/gen ed classes.

school.

i finally registered for my spring classes.

next semester i am taking 18 units of art and graphic design classes... no general ed for me.

my schedule is:

m/w/f 10-11 advanced art

mononday 2-5 advanced typography

tuesday/thursday 2-3:20 color: theory and application

tuesday/thursday 4:30-5:50 film as a visual art

friday 2-5 advanced image

and one online class: web design and css

im pretty happy with it. on m/w/f my first class is at 10

tues/thurs my first class is at 2 in the afternoon!

peeing in class.

ok, first of all i know "peeing" isn't the most ladylike term. i should say "using the restroom" or something like that. but i'm lazy.

although, explaining that probably took just as long. if not longer.

well.

i have a problem. i am totally not comfortable with leaving in the middle of a class to use the bathroom. there are a few reasons for this.

-i feel like its awkward to stand up in the middle of class and walk out

-its equally, if not more, awkward to ask for permission to leave

-i think it's kinda rude to leave while the professor is lecturing

-what if i miss something important while i am out of class

-what if i get back to class and the professor opens it up for discussion, then i will have no idea about what has already been covered

(side note: a pet peeve of mine is when people ask questions about things that have clearly been covered... just pay attention... you are wasting everyone's time)

-what if there is a line when i get to the bathroom? and then i have to wait? and then i get back and everyone wonders what i did in there... so awkward!

-

basically i just can't do it.

today in my christian social ethics class i had to go. i had to go bad.

it was 2:30. that three hour class goes till 5. the first week of school my classmates decided that instead of taking our allotted break halfway through the class we would rather get out of class 10 minutes early.

so it is 2:30 and i have to "hold it" till 4:30 at best.

around 3:30 im freaking out. i am probably majorly doing the potty dance in my seat. i am thinking that maybe i will have to break my streak of never peeing during a class and just excuse myself.

oh but i can't do that. if it was just a normal day maybe i would... but no. it is not a normal day, my professor's mentor came to talk to us. this is the man that inspired dr stumpf to teach. i can't just get up and leave in the middle of his lecture.

at 4 he has us break into groups to discuss something. and i think that maybe now is my chance. but just as i get up the courage to go he starts lecturing again.

i feel like i might pass out. i start picking away at my nail polish to take my mind off it. i don't know if i can make it. but now it's 4:15, wayyyy to late to get up and go. what if i leave and then class ends while im gone. and i have to come back to an empty class room. or what if all the students are gone but my professor stayed to make sure i was ok. maybe at that point i just wouldn't go back for my stuff.

finally the end is in sight. it's that point in class when it is acceptable to begin slowly packing up your stuff. i get everything together and put my backpack on. i can't sit still. the pain is so bad. i am planning on running to the bathroom, i have plotted my route in my mind.

class dismissed. i sprint to the bathroom. relief.

gallery methods.

my favorite class this semester is gallery methods.

the 8 of us in the class are responsible for maintaining our on campus gallery. so far i have learned how to hang art, i have filled tons of nail holes, and i have painted a few walls.

the other thing my class does is put together the student art competition. we were supposed to put a poster together for the comp. and this is what kelly and i came up with.

twirp.

a few weeks ago was twirp (the woman is required to pay) week at cbu. it's basically a whole week of sadie hawkins things to do. girls get pretty creative when asking the guys out to the different events.

jillian and i decided to twirp our friends sam and andrew. we made a whole picture puzzle scavenger hunt for them and with the help of our roommates and a lot of hours being creative together we pulled it off.

we took the guys to knotts scary farm. and scary it was. none of us had been before so we weren't quite sure what we were getting ourselves into.

at first i was terrified. and i just didn't want to be there. but by the end of the night it was kinda the same thing over and over again. so the monsters popping out of the fog and chasing us down the streets didn't phase me anymore.

sorry for the lack of blogs.

hmm. this photo booth pic does not look good.

it was brought to my attention (by jillian) that it had been almost a month since i had blogged.

i am back at cbu. i am so glad to be back. i just love living so close to all my friends and just having the community around me.

in other news i am the design editor for the banner. despite having no experience with InDesign i was able to get the job, and i have been learning so much and putting in a lot of hours. im really thankful to have this opportunity.

so go pick up a banner and tell me what you think.

ill update more i promise. but really its hard to keep the blog alive when i am constantly twittering.

summer 2009.

i can not believe summer 2009 is already here. 

this blog is more for my own reflection rather than your reading pleasure. so whoever you are, if you decided not to read this blog that is totally understandable. 

so far my summer vacation has been pretty good. 

tuesday morning some of my roommates (manada and christina) woke me up and told me we were going to disneyland. so we went. just for the morning tho. 

when i got back to school i had to start packing up my room. jacob and his friend charles came to help me move my stuff. that was so nice, i didn't really have to carry anything out. corinne and i then made a cribs stye video tour of our cottage. stay tuned, will be posting that soon. also took a trip to rite aid to get some ice cream with jennifer. that was a funny experience, we went to one and all their ice cream was frozen solid and they couldn't scoop into it. so we called another rite aid. and they were out of the flavors we wanted so we had to go to a third rite aid. 

wednesday everyone from my cottage woke up and ate breakfast together. i am seriously so blessed to have gotten the opportunity to live with those girls this year. when i tell people that i lived in the cottage they normally said, "wow. nine girls all in that tiny house, how can you handle it?" but really we all got along so well. im excited that i get to live with three of the girls next year: corinne, justine, and molly. amy and teresa will be graduating on saturday and i will miss them for sure. and then amanda and christina both live close enough that i hope to see them this summer. 

then after i moved out of my room i went to disneyland with jackie sam and andrew. but we were only there for a few hours. it was fun though. we watched honey i shrunk the audience... haven't seen that in years. it's always fun to do something new... or old. 

when we got back to cbu the most random group of people had assembled for a late night beach trip. random group. so we went to the beach. walked around. and just sat on the sand. 

then i spent the night at jackie's apt. because after being checked out of my housing assignment for  9 hours i still wanted to sleep at school. 

then thursday morning we woke up and went to buy a bunch of tickets for the midnight showing of wovlerine. i came home and took a nap. 

then i helped my mom cook some curry for dinner. delicious. i think im going to have a little bit more after i post this blog. we watched the office together and i really missed corinne and jordan who i normally watch it with. 

then i went to the plaza to wait for wolverine to start. the theater was out of control full of cbu people. it was fun.  and we stayed behind to watch the final scene that plays after the credits roll. well someone stopped the movie and we all missed the final 10ish seconds of the movie and they gave everyone replacement tickets. nice.

well that has been my last three days. its been fun. if you actually read this blog im sorry for boring you. and im sorry for my worse than normal grammar and spelling. but it is 4 in the morning, so give me a break. 

goodnight.

sippy cup.

i really enjoy the spontaneous things that happen in my life. 

today after the male choral concert and dinner we had nothing to do. until we decided to walk to cvs and grab some goodies.

it was andrew's birthday so we bought some birthday candles because earlier at dinner he had forgotten to make a wish when he blew out his candle so we had to give him another shot. but we didn't have a cake, so we just all held a candle. 


we also bout sippy cups and decorated them with sequins and googly eyes and glitter glue.

because what 20 year old wouldn't love to drink out of a cup with a built in straw?

im voting we take our cups to the caf and use them.

dirrrty shoes.

i get my shoes dirty. 

i walk through the grass daily. 

sometimes (when it has been raining/the sprinklers have been on) the grass is muddy.

but i just don't see the point in walking around on the sidewalks at cbu. because whoever laid out where sidewalks would go did not keep in mind the basic principle of "the shortest distance between two points is a straight line..." 

there are even some sidewalks that lead to no where. the

y are just in the most random places and then they suddenly stop.

so i just walk across the grass. 

and then my shoes get dirty. 

but i really feel like that should be accepted. dirty shoes. that should be the norm. 

i mean you are wearing these things on your feet so that your feet will stay dry, warm,  and protected. 

i know that this is just now how it is. most people like to keep their shoes clean. and that's nice and all. but where is the fun in that?

that is a picture of my foot in cambodia. its all dirty from painting a hospital. and that is a gigantic snail. and in this picture my rainbow sandal is dirty and my foot is dirty. 

and now it is 3:15 in the morning and i am rambling. 

woo.

so i work in the graphic design computer lab. 

its fun. i just get to sit there and work on projects and help other students who come in to use the lab. 

but this week  the four of us who work in there were given a new task to accomplish. 

we are making fire escape routes for every classroom on campus. 

we have to draw up the building and room and then add a nice dotted line to show the most efficient way to exit a building in the case of emergency. 

its kinda tedious work. but i like it. 

the thing is they didn't tell us what the most efficient way to get out would be. so we get to figure it out on our own. 

im nervous that i will draw the dotted line the wrong way and then someone might get hurt in a fire because i thought it would be better to use one set of stairs as opposed to a different exit. 

so tonight i went to cbu's first annual woo fest. 

basically an all male talent show providing the men on campus an opportuinity to woo the ladies. 

it was so entertaining.

happy valentines day. 

CBU DesigNation

I am one of the student bloggers for the Graphic design program's blog.

so you should check it out.

we will be posting student work, and other insider information about our program.

my first post is a fewe entries down so you need to scroll down a bit and check it out.

so you should subscribe to our blog and be amazed.

here it is one more time. so click here.

taking pictures of swimmers.

This is what we did in class today. I love my major!

i love genius.

seriously, if you haven't downloaded the new itunes yet, do it.
i love the genius playlists!


so abby and holly asked about the specific changes to the caf.
the main thing is they took the bar of cereal and milk and ice cream and moved it out by where the other soda machines are.

this is what my comment card said:

• "I think the changes to the cereal bar are good, but the new open space should be better utilized [right now they just have a bunch of fruit trays and yogurt]
• expand the sandwich bar to include different varieties of bread
• bring back daily guacamole
• when students ask for their salads/wraps/sandwiches to be customized the employees should comply with a positive attitude
• when studednts get a to go box the meal should be prepared for that box, students should not be expected to dump a salad from a plate into their box
• bring back individual bags of chips, including the baked variety
• make jello without the whipped cream on top
• good job with sourdough bread, croissants, and cheesy bread
• more selection on chicken strip thursday nights
• get a panini maker that is is always out for students to use
• go back to self serve sushi for sunday brunch
• the pumpkin cookies are delicious
• good job on labeling the desserts
• bring back asparagus
• good job with rearranging the tables

those are my demands.
have ou filled out a comment car yet?

comment card.

the cal baptist caf is delicious. we have lots of options, fresh sushi three times a week, and waffles that say cbu.
i am thankful to have access so such high quality food, when i know that a good chunk of the population does not.


but with that being said, i feel like the caf is not as good as it was last year. there have been many changes, some good and others not so good.

so i am taking a stand. i just filled out a comment cardand i encourage you to do the same. if we all complain, they will have to change.

tough questions.

What are you “called” to be and do?
Which decisions are you making out of comfort rather than calling?
What are you doing today that is American and you rationalize it as spiritual?
What decisions are you making that are spiritually focused, beyond any circumstance?
(i read these questions over at chuck bomar's blog, he was our speaker at jr high camp this summer)

and its hard for me to be honest with myself when answering these questions, because the truth hurts.

these are things i struggle with, especially being here in the "cbu bubble"
anyone else with me on this?

i just typed a bunch of stuff, then deleted it, then typed more, then hit delete again.
so im just going to stop and leave it at that.

it's been years in the making.

and it's happening tomorrow.

and i am nervous.

///slash i really like listening to my music on shuffle. i just heard:
nd old hymn, sweeny todd, techno, and then a hard core song.

and i broke a bottle of finger nail polish in my room. like it dropped on the floor and shattered. so my window is open and i can hear everyones conversations outside.
so if you just walked outside my cottage my advice to you is, "stop over analyzing everything he does and twirp him"

for you non-cbu-ers twirp is "the woman is reupred to pay" week. kinda like a whole sadie hawkins type thing.

im all moved in.

so after a full day of room cleaning, target shopping, spray painting, laundry washing, and packing i have moved into my new home at cbu.

and thanks to my dad and brother, we only had to make 2 trips.

and i unpacked all my clothes. and i really should be putting stuff away, but the screen on my ihome isn't working. and i got on my computer to try and set it up but i can't figure out how to fix it.

and then i got distracted.

and i wanted to post a blog about how freaking excited i am to be back here at school.

and then i was really cold so i texted corinne who wasa outside and i said "im cold"
she said "come outside"
and i said "ok"

and then i went outside and shut the door behind me.
but....
she didn't have her id card and i just locked us out.

so after some bargaining i had to go call the ra on duty and wake her up so that she could unlock the door.
now everyone hates me.

sad face.

D. Wayland Marler, associate professor of History at California Baptist University, unexpectedly passed away on Saturday, April 12. Professor Marler had taught at CBU since 1966.
Professor Marler suffered a stroke in January and had been in rehabilitative therapy the past several months. He had undergone carotid artery surgery on April 9.

so sad. i seriously loved this guy. he was that awesome old grumpy funny man who has a story for everything!
my best memory of him was the field trip we took in his class last semester. Marler will be misses for sure.

i was reminded why i only drink water, part 2!

tuesday morning i woke up at 730 when holly started making her morning coffee.
i had fallen asleep on the little love seat in our kitchen. seriously, who does that?
so i was super confused as i did not remember falling asleep. i walked back to my room and slept for a few more hours in my bed.
i woke up about 10:30 and took a shower.

my little brother came over to cbu today and he went to my classes with me.

young adult literature was so funny. there was a group presentation about some civil war novel and ths on girl in the group dressed up in full on confederate uniform.

so she is a civil war reenactor!!!! i have never know someone with a hobby like that. on the weekends she travels with her unit to a random location and then the spend the next two days reenacting the battles. she plays a young male soldier so last year when she got into this she had chop off her waist length hair. seriously. i had no idea people really did this. so crazy slash funny.

and then in my film class we watched this crazy acid trip movie, Koyaanisqatsi, that i loved.
at first i was totally not into it at all. but then i fell in love. im listing to some philip glass compositions right now.and i am finishing up projects. ew.