a serious subject.

(attention readers: i understand this blog may cause you to think less of me. but i am ready to accept that. i just need to be honest with you. judge me. that is the human response. but know this: i am not apologizing for anything.)

it started April 1, 2002.
five years ago.
i was in eighth grade and there was no knowing what was in store for my life.

i am not talking about a life changing spiritual journey. a love. a death. a new life goal.
i am talking about a television channel.

the n (short for the nighttime network for teens) was launched. i first hear about this hip new station through many commercials on nickelodeon.

my first encounter was the series premier of degrassi: the next generation. it was a dumb canadian teen drama full of corn. i loved it. the actors were my same grade and unlike other shows (ex:the oc) the actors were cast in age appropriate roles.

it sounds so lame but i really have grown up alongside some of my favorite characters. i have followed their ridiculous story lines for five years. i have watched people die, create new life, move away, struggle with drugs, school shootings, and many other real life issues.
like seriously every major event that can happen to s person has happened to one of the characters.

possibly one of the saddest parts of moving away to cbu is that they do not get channel 169. it was hard to adjust to. last year i would attempt to stream the video online from the-n.com but the connection was slow so sometimes it would take up to two hours to watch one 20 minute episode. i have given up on that so now coming home means i can catch up on the show online.

im not big into owning dvds of tv shows, especially if they are constantly being re-run, and are available online. but seriously i would love to own the complete collection of this show.
i want the behind the scenes. the never before seen footage. i want interviews with the directors. i want. i want. i want.

degrassi is my guilty pleasure. but i do not feel guilty.
i want to scream out. i love degrassi. a lot. favorite show.
hands down.